Drowning

"What doesnt kill you makes you stronger"

I have always hated that saying until today when I have started seeing the phrase from a different light. I think it is safe to say most of us have gone through situations where we just feel like we are really struggling. Like the feeling of being alone in the ocean. Swimming. Alone. With no land in sight. You fight and fight but the waves keep coming over you and trapping you. Im in that now. I cant see anything but dark blue water. How do you find land? How do you keep from getting sucked in to the depth of darkness?

"All my nightmares escape my head, lock the doors please dont let them in"

Time to keep swimming I guess.

You Shall Know them by Their Fruits

As you get older trust becomes a bigger part of relationships. Now dont get me wrong it is important in middle school and highschool [ "johnny went behind my back with vanessa!".."but you were cheating on him with Jimmy!"..."whose side are you on! my life is over! i blame my parents wah wah wah!"]. But like i said when you are older trust takes a different meaning. at some point you will wake up and realize that is truly is the foundation of who you are and what you will be about. Now if you are trust worthy and your relationship is great then dont even bother reading this but if you have ever messed up and have hurt your reputation and even worse your relationship keep reading:

The fact of the matter is once you hurt trust the relationship will not be the same. and most people will say that it will never be the same. luckily i have found that this is not true. but it takes ALOT of work. In order to get yourself back into the good graces of your loved one you must be ready to put in that work. You were the one who messed up and if you want to save this then putting in work shouldnt be a problem for you. And you are asking what do i mean work? I mean you are going to have to take the shots, the yelling, the tears, the jealousy and everything that might come with it. But the real work is the fundamental change you have to make. That is wear i got the title [yes you smart ass it is a biblical passage i dont mean that i came up with the title]. The real work is you changing you. You have to make the change in your way of thinking and living. What once was part of just being a guy has to be considered from your significant others eyes. when you have really changed your fruit then it is inevitable she will see it and return to feeling safe. I was once told "a girl wants to feel like you are rher fortress". when you really start to think on what that means you will see how deep that is. once you figure out how to be that fortress [clue...it doesnt mean you can kick ass] all will go back to normal hell it will be even better in fact. now go change your fruit....and let her see your banana. ZING

Lucky Lotto

I feel like most people at some time or another has played the "what would you do if you won the lottery?" game...well i decided after a conversation with a friend about the lottery reaching $145 million dollars that i would buy 10 MegaMillion lottery tickets. For the two days i held the tickets prior to the drawing i thought of all the things i would do with the money:

1- buy a personalized bobble head of myself
2- fund the return of the hit tv show "dinosaurs"
3- travel to see if greenland is really icey and iceland is really green...if so use my wealth to correct that obvious mistake.

So the big night was last night. Now the way it works is 5 balls are chosen with numbers 1-50 or so written on them. so the numbers come up and let me say this with 10 tickets you would think that i would have at least a decent chance at a few numbers matching. I DID NOT EVEN GET ONE NUMBER RIGHT ON ALL MY TICKETS WITH THE WINNING NUMBERS! im not saying even in order! i mean not one number i had chosen on all 10 tickets was a number that was even chosen. I mean if there was a lotto for most wrong then i would be rich and powerful right now! and im talking burt reynolds rich and powerful.

First Post/ The Oscars

So I decide to start a blog after seeing so many of my friends start them. I dont think I have particularly one theme or anything but more of a place where I will be posting advice, sports opinions and funny stories. Im big on sports so throw some topics at me and I feel like I have some good advice on relationships so feel free to submit questions but be sure to address me as Leon Phelps.

So i am a little slow to talk about the Oscars but i just started this blog so i am talking about it now. Now dont get me wrong i am pretty embarrassed to say that i even watched that garbage but when you have a girlfriend who is as into celebs as mine you have no choice. it is funny because watching the oscars ends up being the girlfriend getting all googly eyed for some guy on the red carpet or how bad some girl looks. then you get the questions that no guy knows how to answer:
1.) "oh my god isnt he soooo hot?"........babe how do i answer that? truth is to me he looks like a douche who got famous for being in a show where he is pretending to be a teenager at 30 and dances and sings like he had a sex change at a young age. "yeah he looks cool"...always safe

2.)"so what do you think of that girl"......."hot...but i mean if you are into that sortof thing...or well good looking but not close to as hot as you. you are like a ten she is like a 6 er 4." fail.....real answer is good lord a man can really appreciate the leave little to the imagination dress that she is wearing...ill be googling that image later.

Oscars shmoscars next year i am going to cut the power and have an accidental black out.